Please excuse my long (but happy) vent! I graduated from my health care program in March 2020, just as the lockdowns were happening. I entered the hospital workforce in a time of crisis. I think I knew about half way through my schooling that I didn’t love this profession due to the constant hostility seen at my clinical sites. Covid obviously made this 100x worse. After graduation I took a high stress position that required a ton of call hours, but I knew it paid well and there would be no lay offs. My husband and I were trying to save for a house (also terrible timing).
I have spent the last 3.5 years being verbally abused and demeaned by doctors, management and patients. Of course, not all of it was totally bad. I met some life long friends and made some great connections along the way. I also have helped make a difference in the lives of patients which is extremely rewarding. However, as far as working in this field I have been overall miserable due to the constant mistreatment. About half the days are spent holding back tears on my way home.
I just welcomed my first baby into the world 5 months ago and luckily my husband has landed a very stable job so I’m just on here to say I’M GETTING OUT!!
Y’all I’m so thrilled. I’m going to pursue something I’m actually passionate about and hopefully I will make my family proud of me. I want my daughter to see her mom happy and working hard towards something she’s excited to pursue, not the sad anxious shell of a human I have spent the better part of 4 years being.
Becoming a mom has changed my perspective on what life means, and I’m fortunate enough to have people who are willing to support my journey. I’ve realized it’s not about the houses and the cars, it’s about the connections we create and finding purpose for ourselves. I can feel my nervous system transitioning out of its sympathetic fight or flight mode and coming into a much more peaceful state.
I cannot wait to finally walk out of the toxic and abusive world that I currently reside in and never ever return.