idk if this is allowed on this sub; if not, could someone point me to the right one. Thank you.
Background: recently I had to pay off some car issues, and oh boy, its expensive. As I was sitting there with my car being worked on, I was just staring at these two receipts. These two receipts that have taken almost an entire months rent from me. Then I reflected on the fact that I’m still working on a job that is so close, but still so far, from minimum wage. Then my schedule comes in, and my boss only makes me work for three days this week, which means less money. And I feel… like a failure. A failure because I lack money.
So naturally I do what every young person does; talk to their parents about this situation and feeling.
Well, they tell me about going to college; they did it, took four years, (supposedly) and a little change, to move to a nice space in frick all Washington USA. House, two more kids, and they practically are in charge of hospital staff. No money fear.
But after the call I’m still left with this feeling; that even if I try, it will still be the same problems. Not having enough to pay for anything I mildly want and need.
Go to college, suffer, graduate, and then find a job. But I know others of my generation that can’t; my parents say that they (my generation) aren’t in the area where their jobs are and that’s why, and it’s up to them if they are willing to sacrifice for that success.
I want a house; maybe down the line meet someone nice, start a family. And never worry about money ever again; to only worry about my health.
And I think the career I want to focus on can provide that, but what if it isn’t? There’s medial school; like my parents, I know medical school will guarantee that goal, as my parents have. But I know, I will kill someone; I am not mentally capable enough, so that the one thing that guarantees my goal is not real for me.
I’m willing to sacrifice happiness, where I live,hell, people for that simple goal. As my self preservation instincts are starting to kick in.
But that means I’ve become what I hate, what all of you hate.
But if I don’t; I’m going to drown, just like everyone else, like what you all are, what we are.
Homeless, no car, everything gone.
To live in this society means not caring.
The price is others?
Am I willing to pay it?
In my boat, with my choice; what should I do, what would you do?
Please…