I went from selling cigars to working as a medical receptionist at a family owned clinic. What should have been a better job opportunity where I made more money and worked a less stressful job turned into me being bullied at work and making ~$200 less. I don't know where to begin.. When I try to do the work, because I'm new, my coworkers just take over instead of guide me through what I need to do every time I ask a question. There's limited computers and phones so I just sit there. When I get on my phone I get scalded so I just sit there staring off into space like a psych patient. I can't figure out anything I can do (even clean) and there's no work delegation. I just sit there. To top it off, I'm the only white person there. Yeah.. I'm pretty sure I was hired bc ethnicity. What's sad is.. the job is so fucking easy. I could run laps around the place. I just ask questions because every patient has a unique circumstance and I AM new, so I don't want to step on toes by assuming. I'm applying to some job positions at a very nice company that starts every position around +$9.00 more than I'm making now, 401k, full insurance, 1 week vacation starting, PTO… In the meantime, they have me driving 2 hours a day to their sister location with more employees that got the gist that it's okay to bully me from my initial coworkers. Short of slitting my wrists in the bathroom, punching the sneers off their faces, or walking out and crying in the parking lot.. what the fuck can I do? I need the money until I've acquired this new job, and I can't just stare at the fucking wall for another 8 hours. Any suggestions? The other day I whipped out an airplane bottle of whiskey from my tiddy after a snarky comment about how my man will leave me because I don't like to work, OBVIOUSLY, but at least I got some 'cake' to work with.. and that helped but like.. I gotta drive for an hour and that's not exactly what I'm looking for.. but if there's no suggestions then pray for me because I WILL be driving 80 MPH with Irish coffee for breakfast and a tittie toddie for lunch while I daydream about shoving a fucking ice pick through my skull. BTW I love to work. I take pride in everything I do in this life. I work my ass off. I have trouble sleeping, so I either drink, or I work so hard I pass out. Hearing someone say that I obviously don't like to work at all makes me remember how easy it is to rip a persons cartilage off and shove it in their mouth. I may be white but I'm raised west side and I'll fuck their shit up but please I need suggestions for small petty little behaviors to hold onto what little sanity I have left.
On a side note, I opened her second clinic in October. She hasn't hired a doctor/nurse and has not accepted a provider yet so at the initial location I haven't done any work for 4 months and every time someone asks for an appointment I have to turn them down (unless it's one of their cousins then that's okay). Jesus take the wheel. I'd rather work my ass off for 12 hour shifts and talk about the difference between maduro and connecticut. Pretty sure she opened the second clinic because of financial reasons through covid business loans. Fuck me.