I swear upon all the is Holy, I have never had a manager who has put me under so much unnecessary stress. I do my work on time, I do it really well, and I am extremely friendly / easy to get along with.
Nevertheless, when I take ONE sick leave after 2 months, I always feel like my manager doesn’t actually believe that I am unwell. Meanwhile, the rest of my team is taking annual leaves and sick leaves all the time, including my manager. Today, I was slightly late with completing a task which I was doing for another colleague who is out on sick leave. So technically, I wasn’t even my task. And the original task completion date was last month, which means my colleague did almost nothing for the task. Yet, because I was slightly late, while working on the task during a fever, I got told off. And it seems like I might be put on a performance evaluation thing.
On top of all this, 90% of the tasks given to me are literally impossible. It feels like I am specifically given tasks that I am destined to fail at. When I say literally impossible, I actually mean that. Like tasks which cannot be done! Tasks which have technological limitations. Tasks which we don’t even need to be doing as a team, because they add zero value to our company. And somehow, I am always the person who is allocated those tasks.
It almost feels like my manager has a grudge against me. I haven’t even said or done anything to cause this to happen. But even for the most minor, insignificant issues, I get into trouble. I want to resign so badly but I do not have any job offers lined up, because I wanted to stay with my company and remain loyal. I wanted to prove that I actually value the job and the company. Probably the biggest mistake I have ever made. I should have started actively searching for new roles the moment I realized that this work environment is incredibly toxic.