I need to rant and I hope this is an okay place to do it.
I work in healthcare supporting people with autism. It is a mentality and physically draining job that takes a toll on me. I deal with the most severe level of autism with violent tendencies so staffing shortages are common because people quit a lot after a few days.
I used to love my job and I really have a passion for being with autism and Down syndrome. I love the people I help but the staff is another story.
Recently I’ve reported 2 of my coworkers for severe wrongdoings. The first one of my coworkers put hands on an individual. I thought FORSURE he was getting fired. Unfortunately abuse in this field is common. I did everything right, I called the people I needed to call and wrote a report. All my effort was for nothing. My agency is a joke. He came back to work after the investigation and I’m uncomfortable, not only for myself but for the person he struck.
The other coworker came in ranting about how she’s tired of gay and transgender people. (I have a teenage trans neighbour who attempted suicide Christmas Day last year so this topic is near to my heart) the rant about gays ended up turning into a full blown racist rant. “So I can’t call a trans women a man which they are but I can say “ni**er and no one cares” she’s is not black. In the moment I was stunned and didn’t say anything. The next day I confronted her and she doubled down saying the N word multiple times.
Literally nothing was done in either situation. My company would rather keep abusive and racist staff then actually do something. I did all this for nothing, and now my work life is terrible. Those staff are being hostile to me. Other staff who aren’t even involved and shouldn’t know anything about what’s going on have now confronted me. I was called a snitch and a rat to my face. It’s clear I’m not wanted here despite being the only person who seems to give a shit.
I cry before work, I cry after work, I lock myself in the bathroom during my shift and sob or have panic attacks. I went from loving my job to hating it all because I tried to do the right thing.
Openly being racist and openly being abusive are fireable offences and I can’t believe IM THE ONE facing backlash.
I can’t afford to stop working and my mental heath sucks directly because of work.
Didn’t spell check, thanks to anyone who takes the time to read.